I hate how I look
I hate how I feel
I hate that I’m not over you
I hate that I had hope that we could be.
I hate that I even let myself believe that.
I hate everything about myself.
I’m a failure.
I wish I could just give up.
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I have to admit it I can’t hold it in anymore! I’m still in love with you deep down inside! I want to spend my life with you I want to share my life with you. God, it’s so hard to obey you… I love her. You made her so so perfectly. Anyone would be lucky to have her… But Father, I just don’t understand why that can’t be me…. I’d love her forever, we’d find a church home and serve You together, we’d adopt a child and raise him/her to know and follow you…. God I’m not one to question you but I don’t understand why that would be so bad…
I pretended to stop being in love with you…
i knew our escapade was going to come to an end even tho I wasn’t sure when
This time I was prepared at least as much as I could be.. still gonna miss you tho
I don’t want to recover… From anything but I know I’m better than this. I am stronger than this. I will be victorious!!!
Are you going through a situation that seems beyond your control? I want to encourage you today that even when we can’t see it, God is working behind the scenes. He is doing a new thing. He is making a way for you even when there seems to be no way. He wants to lead you out of that dry, desolate place into a place of peace, safety and abundance. He wants to take you from a season of drought into a season of abundance.
Your part is simply to trust Him and switch over from an attitude of fear and doubt to an attitude of faith. How do you change your attitude? Start by changing what comes out of your mouth. Instead of speaking about your situation, speak to your situation. Every day declare, “This is the day that the Lord has made. He is taking me into seasons of increase. I’m moving forward with strength through the joy of the Lord!” When you start speaking like that, soon your mind and heart will grab hold of the truth, and it won’t be long before you’re walking in the increase God has prepared for you!
She offered to kiss me, to hold me, to do everything I secretly still want her to…
But I looked to The Lord to help me say no… It sucks cuz I really want to knock kissing in the rain off my bucket list and there is no one that I’d rather do it with.
I have to resist kissing her because I know that if I make one wrong move I will be back in love again…
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